Where are you....?

My beloved child: Every day and night I LONG FOR YOU! 

In my agony I had a vision: I was walking in a landscape of shaddows. As if the daylight faded and the night was coming. The sight was still visible and everywhere I turned the landscape was generally flat with naked trees and swamp. I walked through the landscape somehow not knowing where to go.. It was heavy as my feet easily got stucked in the swampy ground. 

Then I saw it, a light glowing in the distance. Pursuing this light I came to an opening and saw a buitifull white house. Outside was cold but inside obviously warm. The fireplace well kept and I saw and FELT the goodness radiate from the house. The windows was of the "old type" with routes infield. I rubbed away the moisture and looked inside. You where there Esther; playing, laughing, smiling, full of life and joy! I looked at you for a long time, running around in the house. You dissapeared into another room but returned shortly. I raised my hand to knock at the window/ getting your attention but I knew instinctly that would not work. There was a gap between us..

This vision came to me some years ago. You are now in a better place! In HIS precense there is NO sickness and suffering. I desperately want you back, here in this dark and cold world, but you are now in HIS presence. You are safe. You are happy. No more chemo, no suffering...

Knowing this helps me: when you are happy, I am happy. When you laugh, I laugh. My love for you wants you to be safe and so you are- Praise and glory to Jesus who carried the sins of this world! He opened the way straight into the precense of GOD and there you are. My beloved child!

I could "hang my head" for my loss is far beyond managable! I could sink into depression and sorrow because I knew Esther. But God has opened my eyes and I understand. An assurance has filled my broken wessel up. Life is not over, it has barely begun! Knowing that my beloved Esther is inside Gods perfect Love mend my broken hart. This revelation is what we all need- especially those that mourn the loss of Love ones. You cannot fix this yourself! Not even the help of others will solve this! Only your creator can heal you and restore a new spirit within. Belive me, I know this.....