Sickness has many implications. In the Bible we hear about the good shepard and that one lost sheep. Thinking back upon those 1,5 years when we fought for Esther reminds me of that story. And the truth in it: the Loving parent will leaw the healthy ones and carry the lost/ injured/ sick. I wish I could be more around...
I sincerely do not belive that my beloved daughers death was" Gods best ". If there is one quality that defines Him its LOVE. Way back when He created it all he said, do not eat of that tree... you will certainly die! He never wanted us to die, thats why He explained his advice.. He LOVES us and...
Dear reader! Without my haevenly Father I would be dead, if I was not dead I would be cripled, a "vegstable", comsumed by bitterness anger and hatred, violent, deeply deperessed untill suicidal, hatefull, mean and so on... Belive me! With all I have endured my life could be like that... When it all overwelmed me I knew deep down, I am hopelessly lost! It was ALL TO MUCH! And in my despair I call upon Him- that is what I did. We need Him- ALL of us need God. Without Him life is nothing! Above all evil I had to walk through seing Esther die is beyond all... I knew Esther, my beloved child, and it was far too much to endure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Without God I would never ever overcome this loss!