The last enemy is always there, waiting

During the fight for Esther we xperienced Evil. Seing her treated with ifosfamide, vinkristine and other types of chemoterapy was horrible! We hoped and prayed that "the medicine" would kill the canser cells. It`s as if you aim at a small pray using a canon, destroying so much else. After 18 rounds of chemoterapy Esther`s kidney got damaged. Her body had gone through so much at that time. At that point we were face to face with the last enemy- DEATH.

This enemy can not be out- runned. Death is always there causing pain, fear and so much else.. Being a Christian I am convinced that the devil`s true caracter is death. He appears in many ways but his goal has always been  the same: to steal, destroy and eventually kill. He introduced pride to mankind. We embraced it and death followed as the result. His fruits can be seen all around. Watch the news, lots of evil everywhere. 

My buitifull Esther fought death for almost 2 years.  She died the 28.09.2016. Since that day we have been seperated from her and that is the worst! All humans are social beings. We have been created to build relationship. The strongest of them all is the relation between a parent and a child. This relationship fascinates me. How strong a parents love is. How we strive to protect our children !? This is the way it must and should be, intended by God! 

Sometimes we hear of children that grows up in families without love and protection. They suffer and eventually run the risk of getting into problems. Lots of crime could have been avoided if children got protected growing up in an enivornment of Love. 

MY love for Esther was, is and will always be unbreakable. If I could take her pain and suffering I would do it imidiately! If I could die in her place knowing that she was safe I would do so gladly. Life has no place for such but it certainly went through my mind when she was among us.... 

When parents have to bury their children the enemy become larger then ever. Touching Esthers cold and hard body was like ripping my heart out. Death ended our relationship in this world. 

It is my belife that the last enemy was not a part of creation. God`s plan for us has always been PEACE. Death oppsoses peace. It stirr`s up, replaces joy with tears and oppose creation.  Now, as we have "tasted it" I sincerely hate cancer!

                                                           At home in her early years